You Should Know...

I ain't never gon' believe
Whoever gonna leave
You feel so good on my arm
Somethin like the baseball jacket with a leather on the sleeve
All flooded Tommy's that cost seven hundred g's
You lovin', hate the type that love everyone to see
Baby girl, go down like she never wanna breathe
I got a play you right, cause this kid don't usually let them stay tonight
And when I know you wrong, I say you're right
And when I wanna say no, I say I might
Cause it's real talk, you know it ain't another
And anytime I'm gone, you know I'm thinkin of you
And anytime you need, you know I got you covered
You know none of the others do what I does... I keep your rocks bluer than hers
Keep your shoes newer than hers
And I do it because... -Fabolous

*Love is the maturation of friendship. You must be friends before you can be lovers.

She is Talent

dopeeeeeee

Trust Issues..

I can legitimately say i trust no one. There is no one in my life who I can turn to for advice or help or whatever. Not even family. Theres just somethings that i dont feel comfortable discussing with anyone. I used have someone to look to but due to personal differences recently, shes changed and shes gone. Yea it sucks but thats life. People are in and out. Its just up to me to move on and continue to grow as an individual.

Im partly to blame for the lack of support i have around me. This is because of my personality and personal beliefs. I understand this. It just came to my attention today that eventually you wont be able to hold things down by yourself forever. Eventually you will need guidance and insight on life's problems from someone else's perspective.

In no way am I looking for pity through this post lol. Im just saying my trust is something to be earned and will be limited. For my friends.... if I am not ever open with you or whatever... dont take it personally. Its me not being comfortable, nothing against you. For people who dont really know me...just dont try and get into my business. No sense in it.

I only trust myself...

well this is it...for now.....I got issues hahaha

I Just Wanna Say ... Thank You.

*Re-Posted*

Where to start....



We never know where life takes us or what it may bring. But once you realize you have something special, it is only right to cherish it. When i say "something special", it could be anything. It could be a special opportunity,someone special,valuable object....anything. Im writing this small little note to let that my someone special know that she actually is special lol.

"early" morning/afternoon phone calls lol, late nights texts or just being around her... basically make my day. I just have this weird feeling whenever any of these occur but i dont really know what it is lol. is it love? no... but i swear it just may be the closest thing to it. Its past the liking stage but hasnt crossed the "love line"...i should say yet. (someone should come up with a word that best describes this stage or w.e. lol)

Come to think of it ... i honestly didnt think we would get this far. It started off with me having like a small crush on her. Didnt really believe it would go any further due to the circumstances and shizz. So i tried to play it off and shit, but i just couldnt really leave her alone =$. Its weird cause i thought small crushes happened all the time but it was something more obviously. I guess when you know, you know, and you cant really stop yourself from going towards what you want. It may seem selfish but its just one of those things. buuuuut anyways...now look where we're at & I consider myself lucky =) haha.

Yea,Yea...i dont have to go into that cliche on how "shes like no other"..blah blah. Its just she is like no other.. period lol. Dont get me wrong, i know shit ain't always going to be flowers and rainbows. Eventually we will head into road bumps and tough times..and i know this. Relationships = work. Im down to put in whatever it takes to make this last as long as possible and im just hoping shes willing to match my effort. "It takes two to tango" ( i know i used this metaphor in the wrong context but who cares..i felt like saying it haha) In the past we sort of worked through some "down times" and i realize its all apart of the process of growing closer together and working towards the future.


People in relationships as a whole dont often show their appreciation for each other as often as they should. But what we dont think about is that acts of appreciation can go a long way. Small thank yous here and there show your *partner*(lol) that what they do isnt looked over....in saying that....Sachini.... Thank you,Merci,Gracias,Xie Xie Ni,Arigato Gozaimasu, etc lol. And for others reading this...show someone you care for that they are appreciated in some way,shape or form lol.

In conclusion to this little note.....

She Makes Me Better
Theres nothing else really i can say. <3

Starting Out...

People wanted me to post notes on Facebook in dealing with relationships and shxt....so I decided to make a blog. I will be posting my notes and little updates on my life here...soo yea. stay tuned.

-Christopher Baltazar